Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Update

Ok, I haven't left my hubby, I don't plan too. As much as he drives me nuts, it just isn't worth it. 24 years is too long to throw it all away. I also realized how much more physical pain he is in, he can barely walk when he comes home from work. He needs to stop working construction, his body can't take it any longer. Plus being a guy (sorry guys) he was clueless on how miserable I was, now I feel bad:( But on to the update.

I checked out EMT courses, if I didn't have to work, and help with his flea market stuff, I'd go for it. But now isn't the time, I'm not an energizer bunny, I just don't have the time and energy right now. With Jenn's wedding, her moving, and Jaimie in her last year at Gettysburg I'm pretty much booked for the next year. Next summer sounds better. BTW hubby was all for it, but now watching him, I may HAVE to get a full time job with benefits, I wouldn't care, anything to take the load off of him. I'd rather have him around bugging me for the next 20 years then have him drop over.

Big change from the last blog post, yeah, talking to hubby and even the kids helped me feel better. I thought they'd laugh when I told them about wanting to be an EMT, just the opposite, they thought I'd do well. Hmmm, a job were I may be hit, barfed on, coughed on and cursed at and worse.....I must be nuts;)

Well all for now, I'm going back to bed for a nap. Can't sleep at night with this humidity!

16 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm glad to read things are working out. Sometimes, when a relationship has settled into a routine, you do just need a gentle reminder of why you are together. You clearly still love him, and its nice to read you want to help him.

Medic61 said...

Come to the dark side of those of us who enjoy the absurd.

I told my dad last night, "If one more psych patient takes a swing at me..." and he says, "what, you're going to quit? Doubt that very highly."

Too true, haha! But yes, come to our side of things; we'd love to have you!

And I'm glad things are looking up :)

Putz said...

i used to work in a physc ward, and lots threw puches at me, my son was in a pyhch ward as a scitzophrenic for eight months being tube fed food. now he is out and i'm his caretaker

Evil Transport Lady said...

Thanks Sam, I think I am just that crazy;)

Putz- I'm so sorry to hear about your son, I hope he is at least calm now, my husbands cousin is out of control, won't take his meds etc. He now lives in a cabin in the woods. I have no idea how his family handles it all:( Good luck to you and yours!

Anonymous said...

Hello love! Check your email...the invite to the new blog is there.....MUAH!!! It's good to be back!

danny said...

Glad to hear the good news. :)

Evil Transport Lady said...

Kvegas-Thanks! I'll check it:)

Danny- Thank you:)

Fyremandoug said...

Listen to Medic 61...Come to the dark side...

Evil Transport Lady said...

Do you have cookies??

tz said...

I think it's great that you're going back to school and for something you'll love...I am so happy back at school after quite a few years myself! It's a great combo of doing something for yourself, something that doesn't belong to anyone else in the family and still doing something for your family like..like a better income, benifits and you being happier...

ok, long comment...but my hubby is not happy in his own job and we're working toward him having more time and less stress too

so good luck!

pinky said...

That is great. Hate to tell you this Evil, but it is obvious you love this guy if you are worried about his pain.

Agree with you that now is not a great time. Don't over stretch yourself but what you can do to get a jump up is take correspondence courses. I take CEU's through different companies. That will help. Or you could just pick up a copy of anything by "made incredibly easy" and read through a bit of that.

YEs, the dark side has cookies. I bought the T-shirt for my daughter who would have lunch with the antichrist if the antichrist was paying.

Barbara Doduk said...

I've been reading for a bit now, came by way of Hammer's blog... I just wanted to chime in and say that what you are experiencing is totally normal and you will "adjust" and settle into your new found roles as time decides. Change is constant but we really get rocked by the big changes don't we.

I admire that you want to go into a new profession which requires a special type of person to handle. Best of luck in your future.

Elizabeth McClung said...

I read the two posts and I am happy that you have a plan and a dream to look forward to, I think you would do well as an EMT (work in my city, PLEASE!). Also, hearing you watching your husband, I can see that there is a deep concern and love there. And yeah change is hard (and often sucks). I hope hubby can deal with it too.

I'm glad you talked, you sound happier in this post. That makes me happy.

Evil Transport Lady said...

Thank you!

Evil Transport Lady said...

Thank you!

Anonymous said...

Cookies, why yes, we have cookies. Come to my shift on the right day and we even have brownies!